New Year suppose to be a new start and everything going well. Going from a fabulous 2012, with new niece's arrival, our wedding to finding out we were expecting our first child to ending the year on a complete low.
Early scan on the last day of 2012 shows bb wasn't measuring against dates, however there was a shimmer of hope that the dates were wrong or implantation dates were late. In the new year we had the confirmation that bb isnt growing and leaving us. I know everything happens for a reason and probably find out now rather than another 10 weeks down the line, but still don't make it any easier.
I keep wondering if its something I ate, done, the medication i've been asked to put on or purely of my conditions that caused bb to leave us. Unfortunately its one of the questions that will never be answered.
I'm still sad that we have lost bb but i also know that bb is now being looked after by my other angel niece which we never got to meet.
In time it will hurt a little less, I'll find myself not tearing up as often but bb, we will never forget it.
Its a shame we never got to meet.
xxx
